Half Hearted Attempts at Realism

Sometimes life is too much. More than anything I’d like to take a day off from school this week, just to be alone and get important things done.

I’d like to sit on my floor, listen to Cat Stevens, and make Christmas gifts for my friends. I’d like to write letters to some important people who need letters to read. I’d like to do some research on a few topics, for my own benefit. I’d like to cure everyone I care about from their insicurities, their uncertainty, their sadness, and most of all their alonness. I’d like to sit in a window and feel the breeze, while with my eyes closed dreaming about my favorite moments with Jake, and all that he means to me. I’d like to learn a new song, I’d like to write a song (ha ha) I’d like to make something complex and time consuming and for once keep it just for myself (just kidding I would still give it away), I’d like to go grocery shopping, picking every object carefully, and fill my kitchen with healthy delicious vegetarian foods,  I’d like to find the perfect gift for every important person in my life, and then cheerfully wrap them in neat packages of colored paper and store them in a wonderful pile until Christmas day.

I think I might have to narrow this list down, to fit it all into one day.

But I also think I have to go to school.